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School Holiday

2:33 AM, Tuesday 19 August 2008 .. Posted in Hurt and Pain .. 4 comments .. Link

I was so busy this few days. but I didn't update my blog due to a very good reason....I am so lazy now.
So surprised with the news at 2 pm this afternoon. Ky call but I was so busy freshing myself.
Someone, one of the lady manager in the island was murdered in her room. It was totally shocked for me. I told Ky that this lady is the second wife of the owner of the resort. Ky was speechless when I told her who knows the first wife was attempted to murder the second wife. Just like that slut wanted to do to me..slowly..Just like Killing me Softly! Ahhh..
I was quit okay this morning. Actually I didn't get enough sleep because of heavy rain at 3 something in the morning. Got lightning and I was so fear of that sound thunder while on the way to the office to switch on the main fuse board. The whole place was so dark with a lot of guest came out from their chalets. I just telling them to be patient since I was looking for the key. Luckily I remembered I left the key with the trainee who was on duty till 12 pm. That was the time I left the chalet to go for singing with my DO and maintenance boy.
I am getting my confirmation letter today! Just thinking of what company will be my new employer instead of the hotel line! But, I think I like this company. And today my GM put my name under his new company as one of his main authority. Now, we are trying to get the tender of managing another chalet..just right front of my present chalet. But actually, I was so afraid that it might affect his performance regarding my bankrupt status. I wish I could clear off everything but I won't pay a cent for that culprit and rascal. Never. Forever & ever!
I stayed at the hotel since the hotel's Asst Opr Mgr not around and I was around there to help him to run the hotel. Well, we have 4 tables of Steambot dinner and I managed to be at the F&B for almost half an hour. then I entered the Front Office for approving some transaction which is not my forte(I like this word). But GM told me that I have the authority to make any decision beside his approval. I hope this could be forever! Insya Allah!

So happy that Efx is back

12:30 AM, Monday 21 July 2008 .. Posted in Hurt and Pain .. 5 comments .. Link

Finish transfering everything to blogger. Need to back up fast as I am not sure whether efx2 is stable and safe place to blog.

Well, see ya! .So tired today. It takes me almost 5 hours to complete everything.

In EfX2, there are a lot of memories,which I don't write at another blog. When I was in critical time with Ky, all efx2 members were there..being a shoulder to cry on! Wow, so sweet of you rose! Me, who always frustrating and not satisfied with almost everything! Am I not a grateful person?

Join Bazaar..join us...

10:15 PM, Tuesday 24 June 2008 .. Posted in Hurt and Pain .. 2 comments .. Link

Let's join and shop at Bazaar

Do register and we will see what will happen later!!!!

Weekend is over..but still a holiday break

11:03 AM, Wednesday 28 May 2008 .. Posted in Hurt and Pain .. 0 comments .. Link

Since last Friday, my place was busy with turnover check in and check out..And we're running this place with 3-4 staffs only. And one Sunday,one of the staff need to take an off day and I have got no choice not to approve it! and Ky was around too, visiting me after his off duty, well...it's just a distance away and if he doesn't have the heart to do that..He will get 'the spank' from me.I am now more fierce than before..Hmm..Always love to see his face when I tortured him with my sharp tongue!(Don't get me wrong..coz I always nagging him this and that!) Ky does told me that I need to do a lot of work..Yes, I agree with him.
My boss told me that he will send those new things to upkeep the resort. Even he had ready with curtains to be install for the new building which will be 24 rooms available for the additional product to be sold. And sooner I am going to have 45 rooms (chalets and rooms). Hope the man's dream will be true soon! And I would be no regret transfered from Kampar to Lumut.

Today I have finalised some events for month of June. There will be no rest for me. Today Ky around and he took his PTK exam for another upgrading and told him that he just wasting his time taking that exam! Weird me! I don't feel encourage him since he knows that he won't get anything good from the organisation.Pity him but I can't do anything since it was his silly mistake done before. Let's just cut the crap and I saw him now as a new book and I will always want him to be 'new' forever(which I couldn't do much about that). Told him that I will fight and be beside him no matter how..What a sweet talk,rose!
My parents especially may father had made his decision to sell his 8-9 acres land and this will bring dispute between his siblings. And I told my mum that I know that my dad won't help me for my case just like what had happened 8-9 years ago. They just let me go 'in' like that without trying much harder. and for my bankcrupt case, he told me to help me but when it come the time.,..that won't happen and I don;t want his money. But the land was my dream . That land was planting with palm oil trees. I think got almost 480 trees which my dad never get any cents for sold palm oil. It has been some years ago and when the palm oil increased, of course the sales received would increase too! And now my dad want to sell his own land which he never get any cents, with no reason except to finish everything and won;t be anything happen when he's not around the world. But, when I was work with a bank, it always my dream that I want to buy that land and change the name of land to be under my title but nothing goes well as my dream and plan. Everything turns to be sour and now my dad just like pouring more sour and bitter! When I went back to last week, I told dad straight to his face 'Dad, I know you are not the kind to help me so don't give any reason and tell me that you want to sell the land because of me.' and I know that he wants to have some money to taking care of him and my mom for the future. But how could I believe him! I never believe anyone if concern about money not even my own father or Ky too. I have seen a lot of things happened in front of my eyes because of money. I have experienced once and I would not let them treat me again just like before. 'Them' is refer to my family and parents. That experience taught me lesson!So much lesson for me in my life!

A Tribute to Zulkarnain Mustaffa .AL FATIHAH

8:39 PM, Sunday 20 April 2008 .. Posted in Hurt and Pain .. 0 comments .. Link

Al FAtihah kepada Zulkarnain.
With me for the last time!

1) April 2006- Got three candidates for industrial trainee from IKIP. He’s the only male candidate who is couldn’t be on time due to a matter. He needed to clear off his pay from his previous employer before starting his first day training as cook at my previous hotel in the island.

I was astonished by his call for being a good manner to me as his new boss. He does call me and wished me and also asking me whether I had my meal or not. The first impression from me to him; Zulkarnain or Naim is a good boy. He is very typical Malay boy with good courtesy and manners inherited from his parents.

2) 19 April 2008

Bida ,my ex FO at GBH called me at 8.00 am. She told me that Naim passed away early morning (1.00 am –almost at that time). Innalillahiwainna ilaihirajiunn! I get shocked and almost jumping out from my bed. I get lost, don’t know what to do! I couldn’t think anything. Called Naim’s phone and his mum’s took the phone and told the incident and it’s all about an accident in Melaka. At that time, his body was still in the hospital, being post mortem. I couldn’t believe at first but this is true. Astaghfirullah! Started sms and calling everyone in my list especially my previous staffs. BUT I smsed my ex boss first (The owner of GBH) ‘Mr J, ur ex chef, Naim passed away today’ and I started to sms by hierarchy of that company who had done very badly to us especially to Naim. Naim supposed to resign after raya too(same as my resignation time’ but what Naim told me was ‘Wait until I clear my job(a lot of functions and the company get a new chef for my position’ See, how good he was! Never think of him postponing his resignation because of groups. He left the hotel and the company owed a month of his salary until Now! Damn that sarcastic of Mr J.

A lot of people started calling me and I started crying the whole morning while waiting for a decision from Hada and Jalil to fetch me to go to his house. Everybody was shocked! Repeated memories keep on recalling on my mind now. I just met him over our unexpected gathering at my interview day at Lumut, on the Election Day which falls on 8th March. I still remembered, we met at the supermarket (which Naim and I always buy our groceries for the hotel- he pushing the trolley while I am grabbing anything that would fit into the steel trolley) and having our dinner at the food court. That was when Bida,Dian and Naz were joining us. At that time,Ky also thought of joining us but because of his on duty, he didn’t do so. I did that on my entry before.

Azh was calling me to confirmed about Naim’s death and he also regret because still don’t keep his promise towards Naim regarding buying the perfume at Jakarta or Bandung. Azh was the business development manager before his second resignation with mr. J’s company which operated the hotel’s at the island. And now, Azh joined again for the third time as the Operation manager for his sub-company under the main company of Mr Js’ which under travel agent company. Azh also tried to defend Mr J, but Shid (the previous accountant) did message me that it was Mr J who refused to pay Naim’s salary because he thought of Naim sabotage his hotel. It was Mr J himself played a fool to us including me who was the resort manager cum sales executive cum everything. But I do appreciate those experiences I had before my second job at GKH.

At last Jalil got a car to fetch me at Kampar with Hada too. We met at the hotel and having a light refreshment before heading to Naim’s house. Called again Naim’s mom and she told us that the body would reach at 5.30 pm and would be buried after prayer.

At 6.33 pm, called his mom again and told about the way to the house and his mom told me that Naim has been buried at 6.00 pm. We missed to see the funeral but still we need to see his mom and family. I was so damn sad and recited some selawat(maybe I am not too good at reciting that but still it was what I have always practice them) to comfort me and to stop myself from crying. Only God knows what inside my heart. As if I could see him again, his laugh, his face when I did angry at him, yelling at him, went out to the market! Just like a record over my head! It’s so hurt inside. We arrived at his house right after maghrib time. Her mom does still remember me. Could saw the strong and sadness at once, in her eyes. She does open Naim’s luggage which she brought back from Melaka. I couldn’t help not to cry when seeing all Naim’s shirts, pants and beg which fills with files. In the files including a lot of menu, event orders and functions details of names, total pax and dates. Those menus, event orders were prepared by Naim and me.

I could name some events which always with him.

- Went to market

- Kayacking with Meor,Fik,Zam and Jalil and I am the only female went for kayacking from Pasir Bogak to Teluk Nipah

- Taught him how to prepare Nasi Biryani and those Biryani dishes.

-Scolding him and I was panicked when checking over his empty cupboard and found him nowhere. Until I looked for him at the Pangkor’s jetty and search at two ferries. Actually he was at the backyard which I always did when I want to be alone too.

-Asked him to wake me up at 4.00 am to prepare breakfast

-Playing table tennis with him and I never got the chance to win even after 5 sets of game

-Fetching me at the jetty..

-Waiting him to fetch me and while he’s late,Ky saw me and fetched me and I could see Naim’s face when found out that Ky was the one who fetch me when he’s late..too late.

-Always testing on any new recipes and get me as the first one to taste them

-Asking me to write an application and resume letter to apply for another job. I remembered I did ask him ‘Hey..I am your boss here but how dare you could ask me to write an application letter at another place and leave us at this hotel’ He replied ‘You are the best boss and very kindhearted!’ And I did write his application. (Saw the copies of the application in the file)..How could I forget that!!!

-He’s the faithful of Maxis subscriber and favors to subscribe to Super Savers, which makes him awake until 4 am.

-I always rejected his call when he calls at 2 am, 3 am because he always tries to talk to me when I am having a good sleep at that hour. I am really regretted about this when I am thinking of lying to him that I didn’t hear his call. I feel a lot sins to him.

-A lot to list over here but almost 2 years knowing would be the greatest time for us.

We left Naim’s house after an hour being there. I couldn’t stay long, as if still feel his spirit inside the house and as if I could imagine Naim was there laughing at me.

I hugged Naim’s mom and I can’t be strong enough when both of us crying. Insya Allah everything will be okay as life must go on.

3) 20 April 2008

Azh called me from Jakarta tells the same thing and I kept on crying. No matter what, I still feel the management made a mistake for not paying his one month salary and hell to that management for accusing Naim for sabotaging the hotel. Hell with them again! Mr J is the one who never appreciate a hardworking staff like Naim. Put me out of the list though I know how I much I have contributed to make things happened there at the GBH. And again ‘F**k that Mr J who always has a wrong perception about his ex staff even me who had been devoted to his hotel. God will pay him!Amin!!

Hada and a girl who had accompany me since 2 days left my house today. The girl who has took over my house having her off day and left to her hometown. Jalil and his friend staying at my house and they had left early morning without saying goodbye to me. Hada told me that Jalil doesn’t want to disturb my sleep.

We went for lunch at one mamak restaurant at 12 pm. Hada left at 3 pm and we tried not to discuss over Naim’s death as it could made us sad again.

And now I left alone in the house and nothing I couldn’t do after looking over my photo album about our memories together. I can’t deny that he’s a good staff but he left the hotel quite late than us. I wish he could do it early than me!

ALFATIHAH to Zulkarnain Mustafa. You’ll be missed.

But I know about myself, I could be cool myself within this week. I hope I could be okay when Ky around. I know he could comfort me. He’s the one! Furthermore, this 24th April is my last day at Grand Kampar Hotel. And mom’s birthday is just around the corner. Her birthday is on 22nd April,so does my niece Fazidah on 21st April,my brother in law 27th April, and that culprit this coming 30th April(haaaahh..why not I go to his house at Spg Rengam(that damn debtor) while I am taking my long break before starting at the new place).

Ya Allah,kuatkanlah semangat aku!

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